It sure feels good to be back. Since my wife had Friday and Monday off from work I took an extended weekend myself, and we spent it with family and friends. I had a gig one night, we had Easter at my parents’ house on Sunday, and since the weather was awesome my wife and I tried out our new canoe on a local lake.
I sure do miss writing when I’m away from it, though. Four days is a long time when you’re used to doing it daily. It’s good therapy for me and it helps hold me accountable.
Anyway, I’m here, and I’m here with lots to celebrate today. Not only is it day 30 since I gave up smoking weed (I take a bow), it’s my 52nd birthday, so I have much for which to be thankful. The icing on my birthday cake is that I successfully made it through 4/20, the day during which all I heard about was weed this and weed that. The truth is 4/20 was never much of a big deal for me, because every day was 4/20 when I was smoking. The important thing is I keep passing the tests thrown at me, and that’s my intention..
I’ve gotten to the point in my life that I feel like time is one of, if not the, most important resource I have. I have more yesterdays than tomorrows, so I want to spend my time as wisely and productively as possible. Weed didn’t ever help me in those endeavors, but that’s no longer going to be the case, because I’ve really become much more focused in the last thirty days, and things seem to be falling into place for me the way I had hoped.
I had the meeting with the recording studio owner last week, and we decided I’m going to record a five song EP, so he basically gave me a bunch of homework, which consists of having all my songs arranged and getting him lyric sheets. Basically, he wants everything mapped out ahead of time so we don’t have to do a bunch of putzing in the studio. Sounds like a good use of time to me. This is the way I’ve always wanted to spend my time, but I’ve been, well, too foggy to do it.
I still don’t know what I’m going to do with a five song EP, but I believe if I’m doing things I was put here to do I can’t go wrong, so that’s how I’m going to be spending my time for now. I continue to be amazed by how I lose track of time when I’m writing or working on recording a demo of one of my songs. I can lose three hours before I even look up. In my cubicle three hours felt like three days. That’s the difference between doing soul work and soul-sucking work.
It took the better part of 52 years, but if I’ve learned anything in the almost five months since quitting my job and, more so, the month since quitting weed, it’s that we can’t live our purpose without first learning to love ourselves. Be nice to yourself. Give yourself a break. Pay no attention to the haters. They’re not worth your precious time and they’re only jealous of your happiness.
Now I have to get to it. I have to meet my parents for lunch and spend the rest of the afternoon getting my songs together before I go out to eat with my beautiful wife, so this is going to be it for today. See you tomorrow.
Time’s a wastin’!
Yours in Freedom from Weed